I completed an 18 day water fast in Sept 2010. I loved it.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
18 Day Water Fast Videos
I completed an 18 day water fast in Sept 2010. I loved it.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Avocado Ice Cream- Raw Vegan Erewhon Style
Please enjoy the worst editing ever, and here it is taking a bit long to load....but the ice cream is great!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
SOLE SOLUTION FACE LIFT
Apply sole solution and leave to dry on face, rub it all off with your paws until there is no more and your skin is smooth. Makes a nice mini-dermabrasion, the fine salts all dried and your skin tightens like a mini facelift. Then follow the Sole on face with fresh aloe or fruit rub (I like to rub grapes or pineapple on my face) and glow like a 14 yr old runway model. Finish with a quick rinse and light layer of coconut oil. You are RADIANT!
SOLE SOLUTION
Nice thorough literature here: http://www.natural-salt-lamps.com/sole.html
Nice easy instructions here: http://www.americanbluegreen.com/sole.html
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Magic Electrolyte Lemonade Latte- my way
This drink is like....uh, goes up to 11 (Spinal Tap reference :))
It really does taste like 11 levels and lifts me up to the 11th level. That is 1 more past 10!
And it is a great way to work in lemon with peel seeing what Gabriel Cousens recommends about having lemon in Courtney Pool's blog which I excerpted:
"1 lime or lemon per day, including the peel helps to dissolve bad calcification; more than that will take out good calcium"
1 serving
mix in Vitamix until frothy - the tocos make a sweet latte-ish froth on top in any drink mixed in vitamix
Juice of 2 lemons, or - I personally just throw 1-2 peeled lemons into blender + leaving a touch of the peel, not too much or the consistency will be awful
1 tbl coconut oil
couple spoonfuls tocos
about tbl maca
2 tsp Merlin's mix
1 tsp 3 Immortals Tea powder (Shaman Shack)
1-2 tsp slippery elm
1-2 tsp Sproutein mix powder
half dropper of vanilla stevia
pinch cinnamon
big glassful of water/ coconut water/ or herbal tea liquid to mix
ALSO OPTIONAL- MSM, Shilajit, Mucuna, Zeolite (after blender), Ocean's Alive or Omica SuperIonic
Friday, July 24, 2009
Start VLog - me in moving pictures
Though I talk about weight my focus is actually healing. My weight is a symptom. I really still eat a raw focused diet, 95% raw and the rest in the last 2 months has been maybe a pc of bread or sashimi in Hawaii or steamed veg + quinoa. It is not ice cream pizza and Taco Bell. I am now eating 100% raw again GC PHASE I. I probably eat too much plant fat and too much for my needs. I think eating 1 small meal and one snack is sufficient. I run 6-9 miles 5-7 days a week and do yoga and hike steep hills. My imbalance may be energetic, stagnant Qi. Or attitude, beliefs, and thoughts. Or deep hormonal, physical handicaps like insufficient elimination ability that I have yet to heal. All that I need to work on as a whole; body, mind, spirit. I promise to get better at speaking in these vids. I will show my physical progress.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
A reader's comment
Here is comment:
Teresa said...
"I read that you grew up Catholic so I'm going to assume you're familiar with the Gospel of Jesus Christ. He died for you to be free and after reading your blog, it is so obvious that your weight and food is a stronghold for you. He, Jesus Christ, needs to be your stronghold and then you will finally be free.
None of this new age crap will save you. We are all made to worship and you are worshiping food; it's your idol. Worship the Creator, not the creation. As long as you worship something other than God, you won't be in a place to receive His blessings.
You don't have to be catholic, find a Bible believing church that preaches the Gospel.
I used to be into all of this and was miserable. Always seeking, always under the spell of defeat. You're not meant to live this way.There is freedom in Christ. Trust, repent and believe.
Blessings~"
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I WILL NOT BE 40 AND FAT
HA HA, that is Dimas with a Hannah Montana Fishing pole. Wow, do you think Miley Cirus Enterprises markets bullets and guns too?
I am doing better though in spite of my boredom cravings. That durian mousse and the durian pods I had on the 4th and 5th of July have made me even fatter. I couldnt resist. I can not eat fruit until I lose 20 lbs. Ok, I am going into Gabriel Cousen's Phase 1 now FOR REALS! I am awaiting a shipment form Tree of life Shoppe with probios, metabolic enzymes, B-12 vitamin, detox bath, oceans alive phytoplankton, magnesium oil and some other stuff I will soon add in. I have not had time to stop before work for E3 & wheatgrass, I am missing it :(
And back to writing out everything I eat and pre-planning my days food and supp intake the night before.
7am - raw Noni juice + ACV + Vitality HA + Omica Active Ionic detox drink
8am - one small sprouted coconut and giant glass of green juice (kale, spinach, parsley, basil, fennel, cilantro, lemon)
11:45 - 2 tbl Jarrah tree bee pollen, handful of chlorella tabs and bite of raw ginger...... and later following a Tea of chanca piedra, cat's claw, fo ti, bladderwack, burdock, pau d' arco, cinnamon, vanilla stevia (dont know if all those are synergistic, but it tastes good)
LUNCH: when i can depending on work day: FIRST Markus Rothkranz Parasite caps, never took this product before. EAT: spiralized cuc and zucc with Good Mood Food Arugula-Basil Pesto, lemon, tomatoes, celery root, dulse, fresh basil and oregano
DINNER: another green juice same as morning
SNACK: if necc. mixed seaweeds (see below) and 3 immortals tea with Ormus
BEFORE BED: raw Noni juice + ACV + Vitality HA + Omica Active Ionic detox drink
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
PREWRITTEN PLAN FOR TODAY
SUPERFOOD SHAKE DAY
I should be having wheatgrass and green juice too. I will try, if I can get away from work for a bit to get it. I work 24 hours today though.
7am detox drink of Noni + ACV + Vitality HA + Omica SuperIonic (this concoction is that of Truth Caulkin at Erewhon Tonic Bar. He says to take it 3x per day. To be careful that some people detox too quickly. But I did not get proportions from him, I make them up)
9am warmish tea of yerba mate + fo ti + pau d' arco + cat's claw with my hemp mylk, cinnamon, vanilla stevia ...and handful chlorella tabs
11am Superfood shake of Earth, maca, mucuna, shilajit, Sproutein, chia seeds, E-3, Merlin' s Mix, cacao, cinnamon, vanilla stevia, tocos, slippery elm .....also tbl of Jarrah tree bee pollen
drink water
2pm 3 Immortals tea (Shaman Shack) + kidney cleanse TCM powder
(EDIT: I got hungry and had fresh Hawaiian coconut meat)
4pm detox drink of Noni + ACV + Vitality HA + Omica SuperIonic
(EDIT: Did not have this now, went for a canyon hike)
6:30pm Superfood shake of Earth, maca, mucuna, shilajit, Sproutein, chia seeds, E-3, Merlin' s Mix, cacao, cinnamon, vanilla stevia, tocos slippery elm
drink water
before bed: detox drink of Noni + ACV + Vitality HA + Omica SuperIonic
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
RENEW ME INSPIRATION
Ok, so now I have to return to my health obsession and with that I will log every day what I am eating. Not that I think anyone cares, just for my own awareness.
******For the record; DAY 3 99% RAW (I had coffee).
Today:
8am - Detox drink of 5 oz raw Noni juice + 1 tsp ACV + Vitality Boost + Omica SuperIonic
11am - Small coconut sprout + 4 1/2 oz my homemade durian mousse (OMG this was amazing)
1pm- warmish tea of yerba mate, cat's claw, pau d' arco, fo ti, with cinnamon, vanilla stevia and my homemade hemp mylk
3:30pm: green tea (out to lunch with employer, did not eat)
6pm - "pasta" of 1 zucchini & 1/2 cucumber with tomatoes, celery root, basil, oregano, and a
dressing of Good Mood Food Arugula-Basil Pesto (YUM!) + Lemon + olive oil.
Dessert - the other 1/2 of the durian mousse + a couple of my Superfood Brownies crumbled on top.
9pm - Detox drink of 5 oz raw Noni juice + 1 tsp ACV + Vitality Boost + Omica SuperIonic
Maca, Mucuna, Shilajit, Cinnamon, Vanilla, Xylitol, Vanilla Stevia, Sea Salt,
Water to mix into a dough.
Chill in fridge.
7am: Detox drink of 5 oz raw Noni juice + 1 tsp ACV + Vitality Boost + Omica SuperIonic
WATER
8:30am: Org. Decaf Coffee black
1pm: "pasta" of 1 zucchini & 1/2 cucumber with tomatoes, celery root, basil, oregano, and a
dressing of Good Mood Food Arugula-Basil Pesto (YUM!) + Lemon + olive oil.
8:30pm: Durian/coconut mousse I made w. Twister Berry Powder, cinnamon, vanilla stevia,
xylitol, coconut oil, & slippery elm
10pm: Detox drink of 5 oz raw Noni juice + 1 tsp ACV + Vitality Boost + Omica SuperIonic
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I'M ALL BETTER!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT...dumb as it may seem
And mainly to bust of this fat.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
HEAVENLY HEALING POWERS
I dont know why, but when I saw the advert in the back of Whole Life Times magazine, it just struck me. My intuition is not strong, my "6th" sense is not clear, but I need to see them for some reason, maybe only desperation and logic and hope. It is $200 for 45 minutes. I believe that they are loving and not frauds. I very much appreciate the Kabbalistic sensibility. I think this religion is based in truth of the love of God. I grew up Catholic. I do not feel the same good coming from present day (or past for that matter) Catholic church, or other organized religions. I do not identify with any one religion. I identify with my truth as unconditional loving energy of the universe which to me IS God pervasive...goodness and joyful always.
Why can I not connect to that source anymore?
YESTERDAY I FUCKED UP
I cried as I tried to get dressed in the a.m., as is par for the course now (I can not fit into most of what is in my closet. I used to be a high level fashion designer in NYC for 8 yrs, and still getting dressed is a fun and creative outlet every morning... when I am the right weight. But now it is a heavy source of sadness and I look conservative and boring and choose something black (low energy vibration) and and big and cover myself up and want to disappear. No fun. Then I get overwhelmed and sob looking at my huge body in the mirror standing there not knowing what I can possibly fit into and look half ok. Seeing my big fat face looking so old and hopeless and my hair so droopy. To me I look like a women's prison guard. My heavy face, even when I am not angry I look angry, people ask me what is wrong b/c my face is bigger and gravity is at work. That sucks. And, I also can no longer wear wireless bras, my boobs too big...great, stagnant lymph working it's way up to breast cancer (?), which my mom had so I have to be ultra aware. So I cry that I have to wear bras with wires as I am disfigured and out of proportion. It is pathetic. Believe me I KNOW PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD HAVE REAL PROBLEMS.
So in my horror pathetic hopeless state I went and got organic swiss water decaf coffee with soy as I have developed an emotional addiction to it, but gave it up two weeks ago (this combo maybe making my breasts sore? They are really painful, hormonal imbalance? toxins?)
Then I got Fabes vegan choc chip cookies to drown myself in as I have not done that with cooked food in the last month, about time, huh? What an IDIOT!
I am addicted to cacao. A little everyday. Not 811 that's for sure!
YESTERDAY
7am 2 shot E-3 Live ...later Theraputic Enzymes
8am Quart of juice: Citrus + dark greens + herbs + burdock + celery
10am Organic swiss water decaf coffee with soy
10:30 Fabes vegan choc chip cookies
8pm 4 Persimmons
9:30 3/4 of Qt. juice - carrot +lettuce + dark greens + ginger + daikon radish + cucumber
NO EXC...because...
After work I went for a 3 HOUR ENERGETIC HEALING SESSION with goddess IRISIA.
I am soooo resistent, I mean I want to be better, but it is not easy for me to connect during this depression episode and I cant do things like take out my anger on a pillow. I just cant get there yet. So we talked a lot and she got me on her massage table and used essential oils and some chakra clearing techniques which I dont know much about. In the end I felt freer, more open. And her suggestions as to why I am in this state rang true for me though I did not think of them myself before. I realized thanks to her. I have GOT to move forward, up. Regain consciousness.
Monday, November 10, 2008
DO THOUGHTS CREATE FAT?
I am beginning to KNOW from the inside out that thoughts create fat. My bad attitude of late, with all the labels I have for myself, and unloving names, is making me fat. I feel doomed so I convey to the universe that I am doomed through my thoughts. For the following examples insert "I am" where blank because I should not even type these complete statements for fear of solidifying them more in my experience:
" _____ getting fatter and fatter!"
" _____ giant/obese"
" _____ a disaster"
" _____ no good / defective / sick"
and on and on. (the universe knows YOU are not claiming these things yourself as you read them ...don't worry!)
I grew up with these loop tapes of negativity going in my head and it is soo easy to start the tape again; just press PLAY. I guess now that my tapes were never erased. I thought that they were for the last 5 yrs of my raw-style life, but they were just on a long pause it seems. So, once 10 lbs crept on I called myself a "fatso", amongst other names. Labeling and claiming these demeaning titles, and the physical characteristics followed. My boyfriend keeps reminding me that body follows mind. What the mind commands as true the body will obediently follow and present itself as you rule it. And I am most certainly creating exactly what I do not want. I am so depressed though that it seems impossible to change over to positive reinforcement tapes. I can't bring myself to replace the unwanted thoughts by claiming what I do wish to become as if it were in the present tense in order to bring it into my life now.
Here are some thoughts that must become habit:
I AM HAPPY / HEALTHY / WHOLE
I AM PERFECTING WHAT IS
I AM CAPABLE AND STRONG
I TRUST THAT MY BODY KNOWS WHAT TO DO
I EAT WELL AND I LOSE WEIGHT
I AM FIT AND SLIM
I AM 108 (lbs) AND I FEEL GREAT
AS THE DAYS GO BY I FEEL YOUNGER AND YOUNGER
I FEEL YOUNGER THAN EVER
I AM AN UNENDING SOURCE OF GOD's ENERGY
But some days I wake up crying and can not force these thoughts. And when I try to recite them my back up tapes chime in with terrible sarcastic remarks that mostly win out.
I know that I am gaining weight because of my bad attitude. I am so sad all the time. I wonder if those 5-1/2 yrs of happy raw vegan life were just a manic phase and now my depression is back? Maybe I am manic-depressive and never knew? I feel like I need anti-depressant drugs...this coming from someone who would not take aspirin for the last 5 yrs.
YESTERDAY I HAD:
7am 2 shot E-3 Live ...later Theraputic Enzymes
8am 1 quart of juice: orange, pommegranite, ginger, fennel, dandelion, beet greens, kale, collards, romaine, celery, basil, oregano, burdock root
9:30 Dandelion tea + cacao powder
11:00 3 super ripe juicy persimmons
2:30 3 med bananas blended with fresh aloe & cinnamon
7pm medium salad (dandelion, kale, romaine, basil, cilantro, dulse, wakame, jalepeno, 1 tb O. oil, lime)
EXC: 30 min on rebounder
DAY BEFORE:
7am 2 shot E-3 Live ...later Theraputic Enzymes
8am 1 Qt juice: oj, grapefruit, pomm, ginger, dandelion, kale, red leaf, celery, thyme, daikon radish, black radish
12pm Healthforce Nutritionals Liver Rescue Caps (x 4), Royal Breakstone Caps (x2) with water
4pm Leaf Cuisine salad: (not good ingred. for me) romaine, tomao seed/buckwheat croutons,
1/4 avocado, o. oil, nama shoyu, cashews, garlic, cayenne, onion, dulse
7pm 3/4 Qt juice #2 - like first but with carrot, beet, apple (not citrus/pomm) + other green ingred.
EXC: 2 hour hike (1 hour totally up hill, then back down)
DAY BEFORE:
7am 2 shot E-3 Live ...later Theraputic Enzymes
8am 1 Qt juice: pineapple, pomm, ginger, dandelion, kale, cucumber, celery, thyme, burdock
2pm 8 persimmons (both common types)
5pm 3 more persimmons + hommade veg pulp crackers (pulp from juice + onion, garlic, cumin dehydrated to crisp) + water
8pm 3/4 Qt juice #2 - like first but with carrot, beet, apple (not citrus/pomm) + other green ingred.
NO EXC :(
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
NOVEMBER 5 2008 - MONTHS LATER
God, I actually hope that no one reads this. But I need to write AS IF I am confiding. I can't keep it locked up. I'M A MESS. Ever since the last month of the juice feast. Aftermath after the fast. It through me waaaay out of whack. I personally realize that this extreme practice does not work for every body. Juice feasting was the ruination of me...that is how I feel, for the last 6 months. Like maybe my dosha is not right for that "remedy". I went into it hoping to heal psoriasis. To straighten out imbalances.
My psoriasis got WAAAY worse in the feast and has continued in that direction.
So depressing.
My body has kinked WAAAY more out of whack than it was before the feast.
I have gained 25 lbs more than my starting weight before the feast.
I am sooo depressed and stuck now. This energy stuck in me like a thorn that got wedged in deep and I can't find it now to pull it out. I need a shaman to cast out the demons and clear my soul.
Having been over 5 yrs raw vegan before the feast I was not unhappy one day the whole time (ok, maybe a few during a break up, but not depression).
This is full-on depression.
I am 100% raw and the new fat is going NOWHERE.
I isolate myself I am so embarrassed to see people, especially raw vegan friends. It looks like I am eating bagels and burgers and fries and shakes, I am obese.
This new body after the feast does not look like me.
I have only negative mind set now. I have anger and doubt and self-hate. I was nothing like this before back in May 08. I was great then.
My depression and lack of emotional control and new mood swings are challenging my relationship with my loving boyfriend. And I do not want to go out, I don't want friends, and I feel badly for him so I try to break up like once week when I go "nutty". I should just be alone, no one should have to suffer this with me. My body makes me want to puke if I catch a glimpse of it. The fact that I let it effect me to such detriment is gross too. I used to be SOOO positive and actually lived the wisdom I know. Now the wisdom is trying to fight its way out of my head and back to my being, but the negative thoughts beat it down.
I have always been strong and fixed myself. This time I am so beyond lost. Been 6 months and I am just getting worse. 6 yrs raw vegan lifestyle and this is where I am. It seems like everyone living this way except me gets better and better and all my effort has been for...what?
I feel doomed. I might as well be an alcoholic pizza eating lump because good natural organic living food is not helping me. My consciousness level went from a level 9 to about a 2.
Cry.
I am seeking help thru an energy-reiki-therapist, a friend.
I am trying 811 diet.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
DAY 61 - HEEEEELLLLLLLLP
Nothing is really happening for me. I'm not doing well. I have no where to properly juice (I don't have a kitchen and was crying like a baby after my regular 3 hour sessions of prep- juice-clean up in my bachelor apt). So I have been juicing at work with the Vitamix but only have an hour for the whole gig so I juice about 2 quarts, then just have the teas and lemon water the rest of the time. Im wearing out and getting irritable.
My employer has the beginning stages (for last 3 years) of Alzheimer's. Man, she asks me the same questions 6-7 times in a row ALL DAY LONG. When youre starving this is REALLY hard to take without being a big bitch. I can't do that anymore.
Does anyone have experience with Alzheimer's. I'll take advice. It is becoming tough. It's her short term memory, comprehension of information, and vocab so far. I'm her personal assistant. I can not keep showing my frustration. The stress is high between us these past few weeks. Usually we are dear together.
If I quit I'd do a modified JF:
I'd make my 2 quarts of greens at work.
Drink my teas and lemon water thru the day.
Maybe every other day eat a cabbage or kale or celery salad or raw soup with lemon, hemp oil and garlic.
And go for a colonic every week.
Plus the additional stuff we all do and take.
THOUGHTS?
XOXOXOXO
Thursday, May 8, 2008
DAY 59 - I'M HAPPY??? WOW!
Hi Anyone!
I have not really been happy lately doing this feast, since the cruise. But still keeping on anyway. Though I do not get in the recommended lot of greens - it's just too damn hard and makes me miserable doing it. Too expensive and laboreous. I drink a lot of lemon water and breakstone, nettle, red clover, cleavers, pau d' arco, burdock, dandelion teas and half my greens as all green juices alone with no fruit. And then there is THIS juice which is my only reason to live (teasing) these days...
In my Vitamix and thru the strainer bag:
Lemon, Apple, Ginger, Garlic, Turmeric root, Fresh Wheatgrass
then add (in various combos thru the day) Vitamineral, Kelp, MSM, Zeolites, and Survival Food
Thru the day take a shot of Hemp oil, 20 Chlorella tabs, Parasite Formula, Slippery Elm, Mag O7 powder, Perfect 7 Intestinal Cleanser, Max Stress B Nano-Plex, Natural Calm Magnesium, Vitalzym, and Dr. Ohhira's Probiotics
Enemas = water, coffee, burdock, cat's claw
Skin Brushing
DAMN! That is good. Making me happy.
No hot-cold shower therapy lately, blek.
I just feel like my normal self really, none of those poetic insights other feasters have for you. But then, I have been eating ORV for over 5 years, so I wonder how many people who have been eating this way for so long realize significant differences in a long juice feast?
A few days last week were spaced-out tired irritable bloated downers but I think I was just starved, not enough intake. Again I feel vibrant and grounded.
My psoriasis is unchanged and that blows.
My weight is still only down 10 lbs from the start currently at 108 (5' 2")
Mercury removal in process (another dentist appt. today!) and I hope that will help to bust a move on detox, weight loss, and psoriasis.
Food cravings are there as always, but it is mental, not physical...I wanna sit and have din-din with a friend for the sake of pampering and luxury.
Energy is back again after last week when I did not feel like excorcising at all. The weather has been grey too and I usually go out in the sun to get supercharged.
Saw Gabriel Cousens speak at a Satsang last week in person for the first time and he is MORE LOVELY that I could ever imagine. A discussion on peace with wit and clarity and an energy not to be described. I WILL GO TO TREE OF LIFE TO STUDY!
That's all folks.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
DAY Hmmm? ...I CALL INTERFERENCE!
(THE SHIP; REGENT " NAVIGATIOR", HAMILTON, BERMUDA)(1/2 OF MY ROOM)
The trip was wonderful; a Regent Cruise of only about 300 people. Regent service is really fabulous. The staff was great. If I had not been feasting the exec chef would have made me some raw dishes, he really wanted to and he kept offering, I think he was excited about it. Drat, mmm I would have loved two weeks of raw meals in the elegant dining room while I sat at dinner every night amongst people eating steak and cheese and drinking champagne and eating chocolate soufflés with heavy cream. Not that the SAD food was tempting, but the weird green juices certainly were not. They just couldn’t make em really right.
(NASSAU, BAHAMAS)
They treated me like a princess. Prior to embarking the food and bev manager had me send a list of all that I needed them to stock for me; any organic produce I wanted, I also asked for Hemp oil and Coconut oil and they got me everything except organic purple asparagus! It was wonderful that room service brought me 5 glasses of juice 4 times a day, which sounds great and I was really thrilled at the start. I lounged by the pool in the sun the first day out and a gracious waiter delivered me juice. They wanted to make me a desert juice which was strawberry-something but it was always and inch of juice on top of 3 inches of puree, so I didn't drink that (not enough to bother straining and I really wasn't doing fruit anyway). So after a couple days realizing this trend I asked for only green juices.
They started coming to me really pulpy too; like half of each glass was undrinkable mush. They probably had a juicer that didn’t do greens really well. I strained it through a nut milk bag but then I was only getting half my intake of liquid for the first week. I finally got to express this problem to the person responsible for making my juice (they would not let me in the kitchen to juice for myself) and he resolved the problem. But the juices were TOTALLY GROSS! What combos they were making me I have no idea; radish kale spinach? Burdock cabbage cilantro? So for the first 6 days I gagged them down and kept on track.(CHARELSTON, S.C. TALKING KITTY)
Alas I was not able to take any juice off ship on days we were in ports. Customs and port authority would check bags. So every other day or so when I went with my employer off ship I would water fast from 9 am to 5 pm. THAT whole scenario of the first week sunk me. PISS! I crashed. Having only the half amount of juice one day then water the following day didn't fly. I grabbed a bag of prunes in Bermuda and proceeded into a week of modified feast; and I didn't eat organic in ports. I had prunes. Fruits or simple salads and then had whatever juices they made me back on ship for dinner and did all my quantity of juices only on days we were at sea. BLECK. I really think I coulda done it all the way thru if I stayed in my own environment. And to have two weeks of getting out of the loop of my routine making my own juice has made me lazy.
I am not thrilled to get back into the labor of it.
I could use some DRILL SARGENT STYLE ENCOURAGEMENT!
I am back in the game and missed about 7 days. So I guess for me it is DAY 48? Calling it day 1 again...I would just stop here and fail. I have to pick up and go on, like nothing happened!
I have some pangs of feeling a little bitter like some other people f#%ed me up. My friend Stephanie is doing really really well and I wanted to be in sync with her this whole journey and celebrate the grand finale together. Now I will feast a week longer after she has had her big celebration day. Makes me a little sad. It was gonna end on my B-day had I stayed on course. I know there are important issues out there in the big trying world. I'm kinda being a giant baby. Getting back into this aint too easy for me, keeping the momentum woulda been a lot easier.
But I still feel great. Went for a 2 hour run/ uphill hike today in Runyon Cyn.(BEAUTIFUL BRIDGE, FOG, CHEMTRAILS)
OOOOH! And that first week out I got my period and after 35 days of feasting it was a total cinch! I usually get hell-cramps, there were NONE! And no bloat, and the pd. itself hardly existed. I didn't even have to use any liners let alone tampons. I used nothing. That rocked!
My psoriasis is the same as it was before the start of my juice feast; 'cept a little worse for the last 30 days and static.
(MY DECK ON THE OCEAN)
I love being out there in the great wide open world. But I love being home with my sweet kitty Little Paw...
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HOPE YOU ARE ALL DOING WELL OUT THERE WITH YOUR SUPERMEGA WILLPOWER!
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
DAY 32 - JUICING AT NIGHT
I still need an enema in the A.M. I'm feeling pretty good now. Not enough sleep still cause I'm going away in 4 days and got a ton to do. I have not lost any weight in a week. My total is about 8-10 lbs thus far I think.
5'1 3/4" / 111 lbs
OoOOOOoOOo Ha Haa! Here is the news report that Good Day LA Fox News just aired:
"NEW EATING DISORDER TURNS VICTIMS INTO HEALTH FOOD JUNKIES"
.....A Northern California doctor calls it "orthorexia" , a disorder in which patients have a compulsion to eat only foods that will keep their bodies "pure." "These people think of foods like burgers and fries as poisons"....
Ahh, those poor poor non-orthorexics. I feel badly for they that see things like burgers and fries as food. JUICE FOR DAY 32 - 4 Qts!
Version #1: dandelion, spinach, romaine, burdock, fennel, cilantro, rainbow chard, apple, ginger
Version #2: spinach, red leaf, cilantro, lemon, ginger, daikon, cabbage, garlic
Plus: Natural Calm Magnesium all the additions same as yesterday
Monday, March 31, 2008
DAY 31 - HANING IN THERE
So Im still out here juicing half the day away. Having a hard time keeping up with the rest of life. My employer has sprung a 2 week trip on me leaving Sunday the 6th at 4:30 am and Im stressed about maintaining the juice feast throughout on a ship. Im committed though. Still not getting as much juice as I should. Still hiking 1 1/2 hr a day for sanity. Staying up too late to get normal daily stuff done then. Dont really feel like writing Im wiped out at the end of each day. Miss the community though. Going for colonic #1 on Saturday. No real results to report yet; psoriasis isn't better. BORE. Sleep is better now though, nightmares are gone. Already gagaing over raw food porn...raw vegan gourmet food that I never even eat anyway in my normal life and won't stuff my face with cashews and almonds and agave and nama shoyu and dehydrated raw junk food when Im thru with this either, but it's fun to look at...ugh. Well, so is pizza, mmmm. I wish at least regular old pizza was healthy. Actually, I'm drooling over the onion sprouts cause when they go thru the juicer they smell so so delicious.
Still doing mostly all green juice but I was getting repulsed and some days only drank about a liter and the next day would be totally flatlined. So I have added apples in order to get it down my gullet.
I made my cat sick with an all natural flea & tick remedy from Seargent called "Nature's Guardian". It's a bunch of natural oils that he reacted too so that clumps of his hair fell out at his neck and he got sad looking. I feel horrible. I bathed him and I think he's fine.
I'm happy to check in on those of you who are in this too and writing about it, you are such great inspiration!
Today's juices:
Version 1. Romaine, kale, cilantro, fennel, spinach, bok choy, celery, burdock, lemon, ginger
Version 2. Dandelion, parsely, black kale, spinach, red leaf, daikon, apple, cucmber, ginger
Additions: MSM, Vitalzym, Zeolites, Master Detox, VitaSynergy (ground to powder), Vitamineral Green (he he), Omica SuperIonic Minerals, B12, Bee Pollen, Hemp oil, Kelp, Probiotics, Liver Rescue III, Wheatgrass, Cat's Claw Enema.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
DAY 20 - WIRED LIKE AN ANDROID
It's 4 am and I am still wi-i-i-ide awake, brain is racing like I had too much coffee. Tired and super wired. This has been building since the 5th day or so (I started feast on the 1st). Not an issue in my normal life outside of feasting; I go right to sleep and sleep very well. I am these last days falling asleep at 1:30 am then waking a million times thru the nite and finally feel like the good sleep comes at 5 am then sleep too late and groggy waking at 9 am. But now! It's 4 am and I'm jittery like caffeine. Not shaking, just super speedy brain racing anxiety feeling. Feel great during the day. Exorcising. Good energy, doing well. Slightly bionic hearing seems to be alerting me out of sleep a bit too- I think I can hear cop sirens from the next neighborhood and the birds thru the nite are LOUD outside and my fridge is gurggling - these are not usual problems! I think I'm definately getting deprived. Anyone else?
2 types kale
chinese broccoli
pea shoots
snow peas
sorrel
chamomile
scallion
parsely
cucumber
purple asparagus
lots of onion / broccoli / mung sprouts
basil
garlic
lemon
+++Sole solution
+++NCD
+++Vitamineral Green
+++Kelp
ALSO TODAY:
Lemon/MSM water, Vitalzym, B12, Probiotic, Liver Rescue III, Hemp/Flax Oil, Humic & Fulvic Acids, E-3, Wheatgrass, Herbal Enema, plain water.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
DAY 19 - ALICE IN WONDERLAND
I thought I'd post some pix of my juicing "pantry", not a kitchen, that makes me feel like ALICE IN WONDERLAND when she ate the tea cake which made her grow so large her arms and legs were hanging out the door and windows because when I brought this GIGANTIC whole celery stalk home it practically forced me to move out; not enough room for both of us...and my little kitty too! I think it weighed 6 lbs. Next is my little frigde. I'm 5'2" tall and I'm a foot taller than this fridge.
I don't have enough space so I'm storing overflow in this cooler, but have since juiced rubber celery and cucs and floppy mustard greens so have to go back to buying for 2 days at a time only.
There's my new GREEN STAR JUICER!
Oh, and my toilet too. The counter space is like, 3 feet x 1' 1/2" No sink. Whaa-waa-waa.
Hey! Fashion jewelry and veggies all whirrled up together. My to favorite things.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
DAY 18 - BIG FAT CRYBABY
Hmmm, I've been lagging. Tired-er. Not sleeping well. Too busy for my liking. And CRYING like a big fat baby FOR NO APPARENT REASON...just like everyone else who ain't eaten for at least two weeks I understand. Bursting out in tears as I run the gorgeous hills overlooking the ocean with the sun shining happily over Pacific Palisades, CA. In the car listening to my favorite music. Definitely crying as I juice in the A.M. All in 1 minute bursts. I had a half minute burst to I LOVE LUCY!? It's not sad, it's kinda funny. It feels dumb to me, but I'm not analyzing it. I haven't cried in 5 yrs; ok, there was that Mr. Wrong I broke up with 2 yrs ago. Otherwise, I haven't had emotional swings really since changing my lifestyle/diet. Everyone else is crying too, right?
I am just starting to get into the beginning of a swing; JUST THE BEGINNING. My timing was better this morning...as a matter of fact, I don't think I cried! I actually got to my dentist appointment on time. BEN encouraged me that it takes 21 days to really form a habit. He really amazes me with his juicy success having 2 jobs, working through the night, taking public transport, and having had that resistance to deal with from his mum. I can not fail because he has done so well so far. I can do it! (Thanks buddy).
I had a dentist consult today regarding HAVING AMALGAMS OUT. I have 1 piece of nickel in there too; a carginogen as well as the infamous mercury with all it's detrimental effects. My bill will be $3200. I have 4 teeth that need stuff redone. (I have not had a cavity since I was 16). One of them has a root canal that needs something done and two have crowns that needs to be rebuilt, or something. And those four have metal that needs to get replaced. A lot of dough but I am excited to finally get to it! This dentist is REALLY SUPERDUPER and will protect me in every way so I don't get mercury dust poisoning in the process.
All the juice often makes me wanna puke. The Intestinal Drawing Formula definitely makes me wanna vom. Not getting enough in. I have been juicing REALLY HARDCORE GREENS so far though. No fruit juice, but lemon. No carrot, beet or yam.. Next Sunday at the farmer's market I'm gonna stick to really simple choices, and just a few. I wonder why EATING these things TASTES SO MUCH BETTER THANK JUICING. A big salad with any of these would thrill me. WHY IS THAT?
Here are some of the things that make really GROSS ALL GREEN JUICE in any combo:
- Sorrel
- Mung Sprouts
- Chard
- Mustard Greens
- Arugula
- Watercress
- Chinese Broccoli
- Green Beans
- Daikon Radish
- Black Radish
- Basil (unless tomato in juice- which I'm not using)
- Oregano (ditto above)
- Dill
- Multiple Kales
- Romaine
- Red Leaf Lettuce
- Spinach
- Parsely
- Dandelion
- Celery
- Cucumber
- Broccoli/ Onion/ Sprouts
- Broccoli
- Asparagus
- Cabbage
- Snow Pea Shoots
- Green Onions
- Ginger - LOTS
- Garlic - LOTS
- Lemon- LOTS
- Cilantro - LOTS
AS FOR HOW I'M FARING:
- Psoriasis ain't any better yet
- Only lost around 5 lbs (I'm 5'2" and weigh 114. Wish to be 105) ...WTF?
- Tummers still sticks out, but only like I'm 1 month pregs now, not 3 mo.s (some days flat).
- Doing morning and evening enemas, will have a colonic at the end of each month (wish I could afford more during this)
- Can't sleep when I need to, at night, want to sleep at 5 pm. My brain is racing when I turn out the light at night, stressed and tense in my jaw. Wake up 4-5 times a night due to nightmares about food or my pets of the past and present. I do not normaly dream or wake in the nite. Really light crap sleep these last two weeks. Wanna sleep until 11am. This has for some reason come with the feasting. I'm so sleep deprived.
- Exorcise feels really good though. Been powering up the steep hills; ran/hiked for 2 hours today as I usually do. Been keeping to about 1 1/2 hours walk/run/hike 4 times a week. Hoping this will knock me out at night. It has not.
- Normally giant monster menstrual cramps were only baby monster menstrual cramps last week.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
DAY 13 - CAN'T DO ENOUGH
But I'm not making the quantity every day. I still can't drink as quickly as they suggest, a quart in 15 minutes? It takes me 45. I'm not hungry for hours in between servings so if I were to make 4 qts. I'd force it down, which makes me nauseous. I'm up to a little over 3 qts. and not enough water. Feelin pretty good though, just more tired upon waking than normal. I'm staying up to late getting all this plus daily tasks & work done. Really no time for blogging anymore until I can get myself up at 5:30 am to start the day.
So, giant bore, but there it is.
Today in my fancy new Green Star Juicer!
I just juice everything at once, I dont have different juices thru the day, just three qts. of these today:
POWER TO THE PEOPLE:
MIXED CHARD
SPINACH
ASPARAGUS
ROMAINE
CILANTRO
BROCCOLI
CARROT TOPS
LEEK
TURMERIC
GARLIC
GINGER
LEMON
+ PURE SYNERGY, MSM, NCD
CHASED w 1/2 T. HEMP & 1/2 T. FLAX OILS
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
HEALTH NUT DISORDER
FINE TUNED REVISED CRAZINESS REGIME:
5:00 am – U.T. + 3 Vitalzym
5:30 - Fulvic Acid Detox + Zeolite NCD & Start making juice
(opt) 5:40 - 2 oz Wheatgrass
6 40–Juice #1 + Additions Below + Omica Ionic Minerals + B12 + E-3 + CHASER Hemp/ Flax oil
8:00 – Enema – Burdock, bentonite, herbal, coffee, probiotic, or plain + HFN Intestinal Movement Formula – 1st 7-30 days
8:15-8:30 – Bee pollen + Skinbrush / Hot + Cold Shower Therapy / Tongue Scraping
11am - JUICE #2 with some variation of these Additions:
+++Spirulina- or w/ coconut1-2 Tablespoons , or Chlorella
+++Vitamineral Green- In your juices, up to 2 Tablespoons per day
+++Hemp oil -1 Tablespoon of Hemp Oil max each day, in your juice. See Above
+++Low sodium Kelp Granules -1⁄4 tsp per day.
+++NCD Zeoilte: 3 drops, 4 x day in juice/water -duration of Feast.
+++Vita Synergy
+++Probiotics
12:30 pm– 3 Vitalzym + Oregano oil + GSE + Lots o' Water
3:00 – JUICE #3 + NCD + Additions + Probitoic + Ionic Mins
4:00 - Coconut oil + Spirulina- Up to 1 Tablespoon per day
5:00 -6pm – JUICE #4 + NCD + Additions + Ionic Mins + Probiotic
7:30 – HFN Intestinal Drawing Powder
9:00 - Natural Calm Magnesium + 3 Vitalzym(X)
9:30 - Brush teeth / Tongue Scrape / Bed
Sunday, March 9, 2008
Doesn't get more real than that.
No more guessing, go get a
LIVE BLOOD ANALYSIS!
The information contained in this message is for education only. LBA or Dark Field Microscopy are not meant to suggest diagnosis. It is valuable to seek the advice of an alternative health care professional before assuming any changes.
Friday, March 7, 2008
DAY 7 - I MADE A GROSS JUICE :-(
Red radish and grapefruit and greens. I'm sorry, did you just puke a little?
My little hippy market I go to had no lemons, so yesterday my friend Stephanie suggested if I wanted a little treat, 'cause she and I are JUICING NO FRUIT, and I was getting the blahs already by day 6/92, anyway, she suggested that I could try grapefruit 'cause it's low G...she might just slap me if she reads this when she realizes I took her lovely idea and turned it into a brown colored MR. YUK FACE by mixing it with radish, ugh. I'd like to say I'm not always such a goon.
I HAVE NOT HAD GRAPEFRUIT IN OVER A YEAR! I forgot how, um, it dont mix with hardly nothin in a pleasant way, especially radish which I love to eat cause it's crunchy, but when you suck out the crunchy it's just kinda gross juice on it's own anyway. This combo is like one of those food combo challenge games I would play at 2:30 am with my assistant when we were working in NYC for 24-80 hours straight; you know,
the following may make you wanna juice feast forever, but not in a good way
OK.
STUFF:
- A LITTLE HUNGRY cause my juice was like the last-o'the crop's famine juice and I could not drink it (I did drink half cause of the expense and otherwise lack). Lesson learned. If I want a treat it will be APPLE. Still, that will be maybe once a week in small proportion.
- TONGUE is taking on color of juices so cant really tell what it's color is, but it's MUCK COLORED. Right now it's greenish yellow.
- BELLY BLOAT since yesterday. I'm not really getting enough juice cause it takes me an hour to hr. and 1/2 to drink each serving. I'm full after 2 of the day's servings. Then it's already , like, 4pm and I have to get in other stuff like Drawing Formula which makes me FULL FOR HOURS. Ok, I don't have it figured out yet. I think maybe THE BLOAT is cause I have a lot to detox. I hope that with colonics and enemas this will dissipate.
I FEEL FATTER than 2 days ago. - I'm not having BMs on my own the last 2 days I think cause Im not getting enough in? and some days doing ENEMAS A.M. & P.M. Also taking Movement Formula and doing INTESTINAL MASSAGE. In my life this is not at all a problem.
I spent $18.66 for today and Saturday. I can't wait to get me GREEN STAR cause Iz wastin the green (both kindsa green).
#1 ROMAINE, CUC, CELERY, BROCCOLI, GINGER, LEMON
*****ADDED PURE SYNERGY, POWDERED VITA SYNERGY, STEVIA, PROBIOTIC POWDER
#2 GROSS - YOU DONT WANNA KNOW THE DETAILS
4" pc. OF FRESH ALOE (left over from yesterday)
*****TOOK 1/2 tbl HEMP + 1/2 TBL FLAX OIL + SPIRULINA AFTER
THEN MADE A CHAI SPICE HERBAL TEA TO SATISFY
ALSO TODAY (in order):
SKIN BRUSHING / HOT-COLD SHOWER THERAPY
TONGUE SCRAPING (as always though I havent been listing it)
WARM LEMON MSM WATER -1st a.m. and rinsed mouth with salt water after
CAT'S CLAW ENEMA
PROBIOTICS
IONIC MINERALS (Omica)
D3
SOLE SOLUTION
OREGANO OIL & GSE
$4.00 FOR 2 oz FRESH WHEATGRASS + 2 SHOTS E-3 LIVE
PERQUE B12 SUBLINGUAL
BEE POLLEN
TBS COCONUT OIL WITH CINNAMON & STEVIA
HIKED RUNYON CYN 1 HOUR IN THE SUN
WARM WATER ENEMA
HFN INTESTINAL DRAWING FORMULA
WARM NATURAL CALM MAGNESIUM DRINK w TOCOS ADDED
STILL NO VITALZYMS :-( ORDERED THEM TODAY :-)
RAN OUT OF VITALITY HA & ENERGY 70 FULVIC/TRACE/AMINOS
yuk face kitty cat pic above from mycathatesyou.com
Thursday, March 6, 2008
DAY 6- SPLURGE IS THE WORD
Here is an very interesting interview with pioneer Patrick Flanagan, PhD on the subject of STRUCTURED WATER AND ASSIMILATION
***Regarding the POLYCARBONATE DEBATE of the Vitamix 5000. Yeah, I know about it. I called Vitamix and asked them directly. I was told that for the Bios-A to leach in I would literally have to melt the container. I dunno. Everything in this world sucks some way or other. I'll upgrade when financially possible. I also live in a 1920's apartment with God knows what in the walls, fumigation in the basement probably, a microwaver next door to me...It's hard to get everything in place with low dough.
STUFF:
- Was not hungry or tempted, but when that happens I will re-read DAYS 43 & 44 of the very inspiring blog by JUICY BEN; A JUICY CONSIPRACY. I read it every day anyway. As do his many groupies. His writing and sensibilities rock; we love him.
- CURRENT THRILL is juicing celery (punk rock, sister!). It is so satisfying to hear it go thru and the juice pours out and it does not fight at all. YAY!
- I have developed the habit of talking out loud to myself. I do this thru the juicing process maybe to keep myself organized. Maybe cause I became single again last month and gots no one around; and unless MR. PERFECT JUICE FEASTER comes along, I will only have myself during the weekdays to deliver the great jokes for the next 3 months. I also talk to my special new friend Little Paw who happened into my life when Mr. Temporary Distraction happened out of my life. And Little Paw is covered in SOFT FUR! Not a bad trade. I can't imagine dating anyone who was not also juice feasting >>> too tough from both sides!
$13.45 FOR TODAY'S GROCERIES ('cause some left from yesterday's purchase):
1 1/2 HEADS ROMAINE
1 BUNCH DANDELION
1 BUNCH WTERCRESS
2 HEADS CELERY
2 CUCUMBERS
1 GREEN ZUCCHINI
1 YELLOW ZUCCHINI
1/2 BIG ROOT OF BURDOCK
GIANT pc. OF GINGER
2 TURMERIC ROOTS
4" pc. OF FRESH ALOE (left over from yesterday)
*****ADDED PURE SYNERGY, KELP, STEVIA, PROBIOTIC POWDER (to one serving)
*****TOOK 1/2 tbl HEMP + 1/2 TBL FLAX OIL AFTER 2nd JUICE
THEN BOUGHT 1 JUICE AT BEVERLY HILLS JUICE CLUB; $6.50:
ALL SPINACH, ROMAINE, PARSLEY, CELERY, KALE added POWDERED VITA SYNERGY
ALSO TODAY:
SKIN BRUSHING / HOT-COLD SHOWER THERAPY
WARM LEMON MSM WATER -1st a.m. and rinsed mouth with salt water after
BENTONITE ENEMA
PROBIOTICS
VITALITY HA & ENERGY 70 FULVIC/TRACE/AMINOS
IONIC MINERALS (Omica)
D3
SOLE SOLUTION
OREGANO OIL & GSE
$4.00 FOR 2 oz FRESH WHEATGRASS + 2 SHOTS E-3 LIVE
PERQUE B12 SUBLINGUAL
BEE POLLEN
TBS COCONUT OIL WITH GARLIC JUICE, BASIL JUICE, AND THYME JUICE MIXED IN (YUM!)
REBOUNDING 10 MIN
WARM WATER ENEMA
HFN INTESTINAL DRAWING FORMULA
WARM NATURAL CALM MAGNESIUM DRINK w TOCOS ADDED
STILL NO VITALZYMS :-( GONNA BUY THEM FRIDAY :-)
Pretty painting at top by www.karenwinters.com/