Saturday, May 10, 2008

DAY 61 - HEEEEELLLLLLLLP

I wanna quit. I want anyone to tell me not to quit cause I don't want to quit.
Nothing is really happening for me. I'm not doing well. I have no where to properly juice (I don't have a kitchen and was crying like a baby after my regular 3 hour sessions of prep- juice-clean up in my bachelor apt). So I have been juicing at work with the Vitamix but only have an hour for the whole gig so I juice about 2 quarts, then just have the teas and lemon water the rest of the time. Im wearing out and getting irritable.
My employer has the beginning stages (for last 3 years) of Alzheimer's. Man, she asks me the same questions 6-7 times in a row ALL DAY LONG. When youre starving this is REALLY hard to take without being a big bitch. I can't do that anymore.
Does anyone have experience with Alzheimer's. I'll take advice. It is becoming tough. It's her short term memory, comprehension of information, and vocab so far. I'm her personal assistant. I can not keep showing my frustration. The stress is high between us these past few weeks. Usually we are dear together.

If I quit I'd do a modified JF:
I'd make my 2 quarts of greens at work.
Drink my teas and lemon water thru the day.
Maybe every other day eat a cabbage or kale or celery salad or raw soup with lemon, hemp oil and garlic.
And go for a colonic every week.
Plus the additional stuff we all do and take.

THOUGHTS?
XOXOXOXO

Thursday, May 8, 2008

DAY 59 - I'M HAPPY??? WOW!


Hi Anyone!
I have not really been happy lately doing this feast, since the cruise. But still keeping on anyway. Though I do not get in the recommended lot of greens - it's just too damn hard and makes me miserable doing it. Too expensive and laboreous. I drink a lot of lemon water and breakstone, nettle, red clover, cleavers, pau d' arco, burdock, dandelion teas and half my greens as all green juices alone with no fruit. And then there is THIS juice which is my only reason to live (teasing) these days...


In my Vitamix and thru the strainer bag:
Lemon, Apple, Ginger, Garlic, Turmeric root, Fresh Wheatgrass
then add (in various combos thru the day) Vitamineral, Kelp, MSM, Zeolites, and Survival Food
Thru the day take a shot of Hemp oil, 20 Chlorella tabs, Parasite Formula, Slippery Elm, Mag O7 powder, Perfect 7 Intestinal Cleanser, Max Stress B Nano-Plex, Natural Calm Magnesium, Vitalzym, and Dr. Ohhira's Probiotics

Enemas = water, coffee, burdock, cat's claw
Skin Brushing
DAMN! That is good. Making me happy.
No hot-cold shower therapy lately, blek.

I just feel like my normal self really, none of those poetic insights other feasters have for you. But then, I have been eating ORV for over 5 years, so I wonder how many people who have been eating this way for so long realize significant differences in a long juice feast?
A few days last week were spaced-out tired irritable bloated downers but I think I was just starved, not enough intake. Again I feel vibrant and grounded.
My psoriasis is unchanged and that blows.
My weight is still only down 10 lbs from the start currently at 108 (5' 2")
Mercury removal in process (another dentist appt. today!) and I hope that will help to bust a move on detox, weight loss, and psoriasis.
Food cravings are there as always, but it is mental, not physical...I wanna sit and have din-din with a friend for the sake of pampering and luxury.
Energy is back again after last week when I did not feel like excorcising at all. The weather has been grey too and I usually go out in the sun to get supercharged.

Saw Gabriel Cousens speak at a Satsang last week in person for the first time and he is MORE LOVELY that I could ever imagine. A discussion on peace with wit and clarity and an energy not to be described. I WILL GO TO TREE OF LIFE TO STUDY!

That's all folks.